Dang it! I didn’t think kindergarten was gonna get to me! Went to meet the teacher with mom last week and ran into some besties who got emotional but I didn’t. Then tonight, the night before first day hits and I’m a mess!
Of course milestones make me miss Brian but this one most of all so far. He would be so head over heels in love with this child we made. He always wanted a kid that could talk back. A five year old was right up his alley. She’s hysterical. And bright. Has the most random thoughts and likes the craziest things. She’s creative and a problem solver. She also crawled around on the ABC rug at meet the teacher day, crawling to each letter in her name rather than responding to the teacher’s questions. It’s fine! It’s totally normal! She’s a creep!
It’s like Suzy said in a text tonight, “He would’ve been crazy and all her classmates would know and love him.” It’s so so true.
I have no doubt in my mind that Harper will rock kindergarten. I also know I am capable doing all of these milestones with my girl! I just wish he got to do them too. Not because I need him but because they are awesome. She is awesome. And gosh darn it he was so the most awesome dad. I mean he might’ve tried to fight anyone if Harper came home and reported that they hurt her feelings even if it was a 5 year old. He definitely would have taught her many more crazy phrases than she uses right now and probably some pretty inappropriate ones. And I would have definitely had to elbow him and try to get his inappropriate meter in check in the halls of an elementary school. But he should be here. He should get to see this spunky little joy walk into class and have her ask for one more hug at least 10 times. Maybe he would’ve even carried her in upside down. Right Mary?
I’m so excited to share my tiny human with the big new world of elementary school. I’m excited for her to love learning. I can’t wait for her inventive writing and for her to continue to develop her love of numbers. I hope her social intelligence and life experiences make her the kindest little kindergartener there ever was! So if I cry tomorrow it’s not because I’m worried about her, it’s because I wish her was here to hold her hand, towering over everyone, then being an emotional mess like the little softie he was for his baby!
