Entry 38: The Moments

This weekend I had the pleasure of being in my friend Kate's wedding in Minnesota. It was my first trip all by myself without Harper or without traveling with someone. It was also my first wedding since Brian died. If I'm honest, I was apprehensive. Two weeks ago I couldn't even hold sweet baby Adaline without crying unexpectedly. I didn't think an inconsolable bridesmaid would be a good look. I didn't know what emotions would rise to the surface during such a loving time when my friend gets to commit her life to someone pretty fantastic. Not only that, Luke was not only marrying Kate but her kids as well.



Well let me tell you. I had a freaking blast! Better than I could've even imagined. The first thing I noticed about Luke was his patience.  He was gentle and kind and super nice. Perfect for Kate! Kate's maid of honor, Melia, was hysterical and so on top of things. We got to just spend time together and be with people. My favorite! There's always a little guilt that sneaks in after having such a good time. But as I was reading Option B on the plane I found this quote, "Even though we are in great distress, joy can still be found in moments we seize and moments we create."

I'm so thankful for all the moments this weekend. In thankful I was there to witness Kate and Luke's wedding. A wedding that represented love and a pretty damn good Option B for Kate and her kids. I thought of Brian often. I got to share about him. I got to talk about him with people who asked and listened and cared. Instead of making me a crying bridesmaid, I was a joyful bridesmaid having a darn good time.

Driving home from the airport the let down set in, the tears came. I knew it would happen. It always does. I listened to this song....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bdi3XPMhUtY.  My favorite lyric is

"Hope that you spend your days
But they all add up"