Entry 69: Doors Opening

Continuing with my mom's theory that my life never stays calm I have exciting news. Friday morning I signed my new contract. I am now going to be the Assistant Principal of the Deaf Middle School where I have worked as a teacher for the past 11 years.

Let's rewind. In May when driving back to work from a counseling appointment, my boss asked to speak with me. I thought I was in trouble. Ha! She said they needed someone to fill in temporarily in the role of Assistant Principal for the last month of school and asked me to do it. For like a split second, I was tempted to say no because I was starting my online teaching job with UNF and felt
overwhelmed, but of course in true Karen fashion, I said yes. I started my first meeting with my peers saying, this is just temporary. I don't want this job permanently. I am not ready to leave the classroom. Welp! Turns out I was wrong. I have loved leading such a strong group of teachers. I have loved interacting with even more students. I have love seeing my circle of influence grow. So when the position was posted, I applied. It felt like a door was opened right in my face and I had no choice but to run through it excitedly even if it meant not getting it and continuing my teaching job that I love.

This blog is supposed to focus on grief and life after Brian so what does this have to do with it?  Well when big things like this happen, I just want to know what Brian is thinking! Would he think this is crazy? Would he love it? Would he make jokes about how now I can never win Teacher of the Year? I just want to know what he would say!!! Just like a life without Brian was never what I expected, a life not being a teacher is a weird feeling too! I am super excited and cannot wait to see what this new position adds to my life but it is also a weird new identity. Widow, Professor, Single Mom, Assistant Principal all within 2.5 years. EEK! But here I go, approaching it with joy!